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| Friday, August 21, 2009 |
| heart or hand? |
he hit me today
many more times than one...
today was the worst though
i blocked all hits that were supposedly aimed at my leg
with my hand....
after that was done... i walked away
and begin to cry...
i stare at my hand
i've never seen so much blood on my hand before...
he didnt just hit me with his normal hands..
he hit me sumthing...
perhaps it was a mixture of plastic and metal..
i try to go away..
he follows...
he asks me why i am crying...
and then he notices my hand
it has blood blood and blood...
he feels bad
or so i hope he does...
i go to the sink
and wash what i can
he goes gets first aid...
the pain, the pain, the pain...
Once washed, he treats it as if nothing happened...
but then he asks...
"What hurts more, the pain in your heart or the pain in your hand?"
i answer "i dont know"
he says "u need to harden ur heart...So the heart would be strong and you would be strong"
I look but at my hand
I hope its not broken..
it's my right hand u know...
i draw, write, type with this hand...
All i can see is a cut on my middle finger under my nail..
and i think another cut on the same finger but on the nail...
thats all that caused the blood?
it must have been hit real bad...
and so he asks again
"what hurts more?"
i repeat my answer "I dont know"
he tells me to squeeze his hand
to make sure my right hand is still working
i could squeeze everything....
only the one middle finger... it didnt squeeze too hard...
so as i contemplate as to what has occured
i cry, i cry, i cry
all i can remember is the pain and the blood
so if i think back more...
"What hurts more?"
it must be
the pain in the heart.... |
posted by Marjorie @ 10:12 PM  |
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